The Sound of Settling
On Monday night, whilst lying in bed unable to sleep (mostly because my ears were still ringing), my mind started to race, flitting from thoughts of the gig, plans for the weekend, other blog entries, work and so forth. Until, that is, it had the grace to settle on one single image; Rachael and I stood on her doorstep, waving goodbye to Izzy, Rob, Dan & Matthew after the BBQ we had at the start of summer.
It wasn’t so much the usual emo trappings that got me (don’t get me wrong, they were still there, just not so in force as they would’ve been a few months back) but more the ideal is represented. Perhaps it is merely a cliché that has been burnt into my subconscious by too many American sitcoms & family dramas, but being that settled is about all I want from life at the moment. Ironic, really, since that desire to be settled is why Rachael left me (well, that and me being a rebound thing. Not that she said that. She didn’t say much, to be honest. One text and two Facebook messages. CLOSURE IS GOOD, YES? Me, bitter? As if. But I digress).
My work life is settled (I come off probation this week), and my social life is getting there. Izzy and Dan came round for dinner last night, and it was the first time I’ve had friends round since, oh, last October? In addition, Ant & Tilly are coming on Friday, which’ll be grand, as I certainly didn’t do enough with those two whilst we were at uni. Hopefully these kind of things will become a bit more regular in the future. I mean, what’s the point of having a lovely clean flat if I’m the only bugger who ever sees it? Still, there’s just one key element missing, a fact that will no doubt be hammered home with Valentine’s fast approaching.
Chris Worfolk said,
February 4, 2009 at 11:46 pm
Well seen as you’re hinting, I think I can manage dinner at yours on February 14th
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Nazokoneko said,
February 7, 2009 at 4:51 pm
I’m sorry, you’re a wonderful person and you didn’t deserve to be treated like that.
Kieran O'Shea said,
February 8, 2009 at 8:53 pm
The whole settling thing; I really know how you feel on that one
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